Here im, on a cold and quiet saturday, recollecting my thoughts about certain stuffs that shouldve been long gone from my mind. but they did not. they remain vaguely there, poping up at certain occasions as and when they like and stir up a whirlpool of emotions yet again.

so the first one.

Not so much of an importance anymore because its been far too long ago that even i cant exactly remember the details all i remember is fun fun and alot of fun together and regardless peoples' stares and suspicions, we remained really tight. till.... someday you decided to leave because someone more interesting came along and you got caught up with your worldly affairs like...

and then, the second one

this one would also never be of anymore importance because it does not deserve it plus it was way too short i only know that i enjoyed talking to you alot and i tried to tear down the walls you built inside but my attempts were all futile because you couldnt even see me in the first place. then you went on and dismantle whatever you had inside right infront of my eyes, but not to me.

the third,

i should sincerely apologise to you because ignorant as i was, i pushed you away time and time and again. you probably got too tired and coupled with your fading of interest over time, you left. just like that. attempts to pull things back together have proved to be of no use and i stop trying anymore. but i remember how you said that you would be there for me and how you would take time out your busy schedule to entertain me and tolerate my moodswings.

no im not sad neither is this a emotional post. You know at some point of time you just get so tired of people coming and leaving and you never know why, neither do they so no point holding on to things of the past but instead move on and treasure whatever you have. so thankful to have people like (besides my girls) alvin, pamela who would always understand whatever im telling them at that point of time and they actually care and emphatize with you and not just reply ''cheerup ok'' or ''i know it sucks'' no not everyone knows. i bet you dont.