some people are beautiful, just by who they are.

h a p p y e i g h t t e e n b r y a n c h o n g c h e e k e o n g

besides having random..anxiety visitations, i think im pretty much alright. ha ha ha so i failed my first ever exam-msa1 s i g h think that made me alil more anxious than usual, thus the unseemly actions last friday;i bought a myriad of food and consumed maybe one third of everything while the other two third went into.. the bin. everything seems so unattractive to me i think ''burden'' and ''not nice'' has dominated that small part of my mind and wiped out all the other words in my... vocab. But, from today onwards with now being 59mins past midnight, i've decided to be lifted out of this abysmal depth of melancholy. Not by my own strength, and not that ive ''seen the light'' but.. i think life's more than just this- This occasional ok maybe alil more frequent than occasional emotional self wallowing in self pity and anguish every other day when the night falls. Maybe school cca music and some other stuff or people that matters alot because they are so close to my heart has cause a turmoil in my inner self for quite awhile now. So here im, declaring that im not gna depend on my self effort anymore. Remember, its faith+hope+love+grace+unceasing fruitfulness.