the start of the end

hi all! i ended my alevels yesterday!!!! *insert multiple smiley faces*

Feels so surreal that its over. Its like i've been anticipating for too long and
 now that its really over it doesn't feel real at all. Though im really thankful that this journey has finally ended, i actually havent really felt that sense of liberation that i want to feel yet. sighpie. that aside, its still nice knowing that i can wake up to no alarms, neither do i need to stay home every weekend to study nor seek new study hideouts everyother day to find the spot that would grant me the highest level of productivity.

2years.

Ok... i would not try to pretend that i'd been the usual hardworking jc kid for the past 2 years since... i really was leaning towards the other end of the spectrum of the usual jc kids stereotype-study.study.study.

fine i didnt.

but still, it was 2years of hardwork i guess? i mean i never ever studied (except the last 3months before Os) throughout my secondary school life and stepping into sa or any other college for that matter, i suppose, made me realise that..... hardwork is indeed necessary. yea no shit right. though the amount of effort i put in for this examination still pales in comparison to many others, im relatively proud of myself that i did put in the minimal required amount of hardwork, and i pulled through. thankyou jesus :') i dont think that anyone would really understand the pain of being in a junior college unless you've experienced it for yourself. Dont get me wrong, im not saying that poly students do not work hard neither do they feel stressed. i know they do. but personally, i feel that college is a very special journey that id keep close to my heart. the kind of disappointments faced that in turn built up a stronger will power (cliche but yes) the kind of pain when you put in a mountain of effort and get back grades that seemed to signify doom. Like how A1 for math at Olevels and hard work with the endless tuition sessions translated into straight Us for math in my entire j2 life. and im not even kidding. and the little joy experienced when i get a C or D for any history or econs exams only to have reality slap you telling you that.. Cs and Ds wouldnt bring you anywhere at the end of the journey. the kind of support your classmates give you and help you ever so willingly and for that, im truely blessed, given that many others that are selfish and competitive, i actually have a really lovely class that's ever so helpful and supportive. Oh and smart ofcourse. im thankful i went to sajc. im thankful i completed this journey.

So i spent my first day of post As watching pitch perfect and just hanging with the people above. No not tina and adrian if u were wondering, i met them in town for a short while thats all. Anyway... to celebrate the start of my finally existent life, im going to taiwan with pamela tomorrow!yay alright see you all 1 week later.