i promise a post if i did well right ha ha ha ok i did not do well but here's a post anyway.
so the thing is.. i thought i'd do decently well like decent enough to get into the desired course and whuddup.. i didnt. infact it went quite the opposite. If u must know, it adds up to merely 70rankpoints on the dot.

i used to sneak my nosy butt up to the hall during the release of my seniors' alvl results and promise myself that i won't be one of those crying their eyeballs out at the hall.

i used to think that good grades are pretty much a given since ''it cant be all that bad for me''

i used to vision myself going down that path of road that i had always planned to.

It seems so surreal that i screwed up its like.. i hesitated for a moment upon receiving my grades cus it simply didnt seem right that those grades belong to me. Like faith and screwed up is so warped it just doesnt go. ha ha here's a brownie point to my cockiness. idk the grades just doesnt justify the hardwork and shit i went through for the past 2 years all the hours studying all the time and money spent on countless tuition sessions all the pressure and constant reminders that drill all the holes in our brains. Though admitedly my effort probably adds up to only half of those kids that did well, it still shouldnt nullify its existence just like that cus its not fair.

But whats fair?

But its okay. Time to suck it up faith. On the brightside i was able to recognise the ones who really care for me and the people that made sure i was okay, or atleast i would be. And i do realise too, the other set of friends that are merely express their concern cus its morally upright to do so, and not because they truely care. i know.

Anyways, in all things, my God has a plan.